Today I took another home pregnancy test. It was negative. So, here's what we're going to do: Focus on all of the good things that happened with this pregnancy/possible miscarriage (since we won't know definitely till we get the blood test results on Wednesday, we'll just call it "possible").
Good thing #1: Craig & I were both happy and excited when we found out we were pregnant. This means that we're both on the same page, and we're both "ready" mentally to have a child.
Good thing #2: We can get pregnant. After 10 months off birth control, wondering if I was ovulating (with no success via at-home ovulation predictor kits), it's apparent that at some point there was an egg around and it was found successfully by a little swimmer courtesy of Craig.
Good thing #3: We have more time to focus on what we would need to do to prepare the house and our finances for a child. Top thing on the home-repair-to-do list for the fall: refinish the second bedroom floors so we can bring in the furniture from my brother's old bedroom that my mother is giving us. Second thing on the list: finish the half bathroom so that if I have the pee-pee dance every 20 minutes like this time, I don't have to jog upstairs. (If you're wondering why it's waiting till fall, it's because we have a plethora of outdoor things to do while the weather is good!)
Additionally, it seems like the bleeding has finally slowed down and perhaps even stopped. Thank God, because it was getting a bit ridiculous!
I'll be continuing to pray for God to guide us in this journey. He knows His plan for our family, and I'm sure it will be revealed to us in His time. I will grieve for the loss of this little one, but I know there are others in heaven who have gone ahead to receive him or her into their arms.
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