All the Feels at 40 Weeks

It's been a crazy past four weeks.  There have been ups and downs, happy and sad.  It's been really difficult to figure out how to feel, honestly.

My dad died on October 24th in Italy, after my brother was able to be there to spend the previous two weeks with him in the hospital.  Unfortunately, being 36+ weeks pregnant meant I could not be there in person with them, as much as I wanted to.  There's not much I can say about losing a parent.  I guess it's one of those things that you know is coming eventually, but you don't expect it to come so soon and you're really not prepared.  It's really been difficult, especially with balancing grieving and being happy about the new baby coming.  I wish Dad could be here to meet his grandchild, but at least I know he is watching from heaven.  I found this beautiful picture of him the day after Gabriel was born in 2014.  I think his smile says it all.

Nonno & Gabriel - November 2, 2014

On to happier topics...

Halloween was fun this year.  Gabe was all about trick or treating!  He wanted to be a skeleton, so I got a matching costume!  Even with us walking the ENTIRE Craig Street hill, baby still did not make his/her debut, ha!

And yes, the costumes glowed in the dark!

We also celebrated Gabriel's actual 4th birthday as a family of three, for not much longer!

Last birthday as a family of 3!

This week, we made it to full-term at 40 weeks.  I guess my babies like their womb with a view!  Our weekly appointment went well.  We officially have an eviction date (AKA a repeat c-section date), if baby doesn't decide to arrive on his/her own.  Gabriel has been talking to the baby and says s/he does not want to come out yet.  I've still been working, cleaning, grocery shopping, etc, and I have to say that I feel pretty good considering there is a heavy beach ball attached to my belly!  I am so ready to see my ankles again for more than 5 minutes when I wake up in the morning, though!  We're all so excited to find out if baby is a boy or a girl!  Hurry up, baby, we want to meet you!

Taken one day late, but baby was still inside!