Well, it's been quite some time since I posted here!! Gabriel is a whopping 3 yrs & almost 4 months. He is a three-nager and throws the occasional tantrum. Overall, he's pretty well-behaved and he's super smart (though that could be mom bias!). He knows his ABCs but hates singing it, counts to 20, knows colors & shapes, and I'm pretty sure he's used the F-word without us really understanding what he said. (Note: He absolutely did NOT pick that up from me!!)
Craig & I are approaching our 10th Anniversary in about 2 weeks. We've been working on building our family since Gabe, but we suffered two more fairly early miscarriages (bringing the total to 3) in July 2016 and June 2017. It's such a fine balance between keeping on working to have another baby and making sure our current kiddo is first & foremost. Plus a big emotional drain.
I had a really good feeling about this month, though. We started it off with a week-long venture to sunny Florida for 2 conferences - one for my business and one for my teaching job. Gabe & Craig got to go around and see some of Craig's family while I was "stuck" inside at events. It gave us a little chance to unwind though. (Gabe did great on his first plane ride, by the way!!) I felt like we were much less stressed after this, though we came home to a snowstorm after a week in 75+° weather!! We also had planned to begin our 3rd bedroom renovation once we returned (the last room on the main level to get a facelift) -- we DID start this project last weekend and we are right on track to be done perhaps by Easter.
Anyway, as I was saying, I had a good feeling about February. As most of you know, I am NOT a particularly patient person (call it type-A or being a Virgo or what have you), so I decided to rush into a pregnancy test a week too early. And wouldn't you know it? Faint positive!! I'm a meticulous fertility charter, so I realized how this could easily end in an early miscarriage (or chemical pregnancy, if you prefer that terminology -- I do not) like the last 2 times. So what did I do? I have taken a pregnancy test at least once (ok, in reality maybe twice) daily for 3 days straight. Still a faint positive, but also a "pregnant" reading on a digital test!
Well, I am a little more apprehensive about telling Craig, and anyone else for that matter, until I know this baby is sticking around. Can't really blame me after our track record, right? I already had an annual ob/gyn appointment scheduled for 2 days from now, so I plan to have them take a blood test to make sure (and I'll continue testing everyday for my own personal verification, haha!). I was thinking to wait till our anniversary to drop the big news on Craig -- maybe a card signed from me, Gabe (who now writes his own scribbles that usually contain a well-decipherable "G"), & his future child due November 2018. That might be cute.
In the meantime, I am praying all the time that God allows us to keep this blessing this time. Heaven already has 3 of our angels. I would love to have another baby to hold in my arms here on Earth.
Funny thing, Gabe sat down next to me this evening and told me I have a baby. No prompting or anything. It struck me -- the angel Gabriel announced to Mary. Was my Gabriel announcing to me? Anyway, he said he wants a crying baby. I asked if he preferred boy or girl and he said he just wants it to cry. Haha, I will remind him of that when he complains the baby is crying too much!! I told him a baby would grow in my stomach, and he put his face close and talked to it. I was laughing/tearing up too much to make out what he said. I love that he is already enchanted by the idea!!
Praying all the time for this baby to be healthy & happy.
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